havent blogged in a while

Ive been too busy. :( Maybe I can keep up with this thing now. I watched the grammys tonight and all I can say is blah! I am not embarrased to admit that i enjoyed the Taylor Swift/Miley Cyrus performance. haha and Paul McCartney because beatles=love. <3 Other than that it was a bore.

My life has also been a bore lately. I cant wait until this saturday when I go see the new Friday the 13th movie, thats how I will be spending my valentines day. =p and my 21st birthday is in 2 weeks. yay!

Obama =] & me venting about ignorance.

Today Barack Obama became the new president of the USA and I am stoked. I have a feeling that things are looking up for this nation and I am usually a total pessimist. haha. Alot of people are really happy about the fact that we have our first african american president, but some arent. I could understand somebody being unhappy about the new president for any reason, but because of his skin color is absolutely ridiculous and it makes me sick. Today on myspace, I saw the N word mentioned more than once and the inaguration was referred to as the In"nigger"ration. Maybe that skank thought it was funny, but it actually made her look like an immature douche. But she goes to church and loves God. wtf?

We don't need no education.

ughh unfortunately school starts back tomorrow. I am not looking foward to it. I enjoy staying at home and doing nothing productive. =] I think I am getting sick. I have had a runny nose all day and it sucks. :( I havent posted anything in a few days. I just havent had alot going on. I finished reading The Clique last night and that book is awesome. Its kind of a teeny bopper book, but it reminds me of my high school so much. I can relate to the character Claire in some ways. =/ Im almost finished with The Bell Jar which is also a very good book.

Also, thanks to everybody that is following my blog. Maybe I can give you something interesting. =] and ill return the favor and follow yours. Thanks.

First day of 2009

Today started off really good. I spent the first day of the new year with my family. My grandma cooked a big dinner that was delicious. =] Later on that the day I started having really bad stomach pains. =/ I have been having them for a while and the doctors cant find out whats causing them. :( And I have been having them all day. ughhh I thought I was going to pass out in the bathroom. So it started off good and ended not so good. *sigh* But anyways, hopefully everybody else had a great new year! :)

Last day of 2008

In 7 hours 2009 will be here and im so ready for it. I have a good feeling about this year and idk why. Im usually pessimistic about everything so this is a change. haha. I dont have any major plans for tonight. I will be bringing in the new year with my family,watch the ball drop on tv, & shoot some fireworks. I hope you all have a great new year and keep those resolutions. =]

Isn't life a series of images that change as they repeat themselves?

I love Andy Warhol paintings. Some people might look at them and think they are crap, but I see beauty in them. :) Something different.

My life in 2008 & 2009

I can honestly say that 2008 has been one of the worst years I have experienced in a long time. It was filled with unnecessary drama from the beginning. ughh it made me feel like crap as a person and I felt like I was hitting rock bottom all over again, having dealt with depression for 6 years. =/ That is how people are, they will try to bring you down when you are finally up. They suceeded. In early August the doctors thought I had cancer, tests were ran and everything showed up ok, one of the only good things to happen in 2008. Late August my cousin lost his battle with lung cancer. :( It was extremely hard for my family. I did alot of stupid things this year, but one of the best things I did was get rid of those crazy psychos that were in my life creating drama. I thought it would be hard, but it isnt. I dont miss them one bit. My idol, Marilyn Monroe, once said..."sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together". Now I believe that more than ever. I have a feeling that 2009 will be the best year ever. I have set goals for myself and I plan on achieving them. Nothing/Nobody will stand in my way. Even though I still have my health problems, no matter what comes my way I will be ready to face it.

Resolutions for 2009:

• Lose weight
• Stop eating red meat
• Start going to church...again
• Be less shy
• Stop worrying about what other people think
• Stop letting certain people walk all over me
• Start writing again
• Read more
• Learn to cook
  
• Get a job
• Finish school
• Be a better person